ya know..at this point of time now, i rrly envy u guys..somehow, i rrly do..taking this fast track to University isnt pleasant at all..JC life might be stressful, wif all the project works and all..but it's like u guys are still doing ur best, in everything tt u do..tt's easy to say, not all tt easy do actually do it, but at least, it's a better position than i am in now, well in my opinion tt is..
right now i needa choose a University course already..yes..it's so soon..if i do well enough, i'll be enrolled in a desired course, which i still dunno wad..i needa choose my path already..as in, rrly choose my path..once i apply, there's no turning back..wad's worse, i dun rrly know wad i wanna do in life..im juz following my feelings, and of cuz, words of my parents and siblings..i dun even know wad i wan..
at least u guys still have one more year to go..u all may wish for time to flow faster, so tt u all can major in wadeva faculty u desire, but as for me, i rrly envy u guys cuz there's more time available for u all to decide..now im pushed to make a decision already..i dunno if im ready for it, but i guess i have to..i dun have much of a choice..i cant say "i think i wanna go bck to singapore, study JC"..my parents will kill me for that..but i oso cant make a rash decision tt i might regret for life..
now, im stressed..in addition to that, exams are here..and it's not tt im fully prepared for it..i juz dunno wad im doing anymore..my will and motivation to study..i dunno how to explain it..i feel as though..i've lost it already..i dunno wad happened either..but tt doesnt rrly matter, cuz it cant change the way i am now..im stressed..
