somehow...i feel myself changing, slowly but steadily..is this a gd sign? i doubt so..i dowan myself to change..of all changes, i feel this one is definitely a bad one..i used to think alot, i noe it's not sth to be proud of, but i feel tt's juz me..if i dun think alot, im not me anymore..i dun feel at ease...recently i noticed i've started to be more heck care le, but on top of tt, i start to think more abt my heck-care-ness...i guess it's the lazy bone again...when sth happens, i dun rrly give a damn..on the outside, i dun think abt it. but on the inside, i'm thinking to myself whether i've made the right decision to not do anything..tis is juz generally speaking la..not refering to anything in particular...
i dun wanna change the way i am, but this environment , i realised, is leaving me wif not much choice..but the thought tt my stay here is only temporary, at most 7yrs, i feel in me the resistant against changing my ways in order to adapt better to this place..i noe i sound stupid..wadeva...
i've only been here for 3mths, i'm into so much shit le..i'll survive this place if i dun give a damn...but if i do, i'll have a hard time...
random stuff : juz received a bad news...=(
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