these few days v sucky. dunno y. i guess this yr's my unlucky yr ba...starting already so bad le. haix...many things are not going according to wad i expected. n i dun like that. i hate those kind of feelings. makes me sick. argh...
on new yr's day, 1st of jan, whole day stay at home to rot. things wasnt tt simple. was quarreling wif bro every now n then for the whole day. we were the onli ppl at home tt day until at night when my big bro came back.my bro was testing the com he bought for melbourne. so i couldnt use the com le. so went to slp lorz. didnt wanna do anything else. the nxt day was abit better. morning took bus to seremban, a place in m'sia. den parents came to fetch us n we went to my grandparents' place. my whole family, e six of us, went. when toking to them halfway my phone rang. asnwered the call, but i told the person i would call bck when i dunno who it was. so dumb right. kaoz. den i couldnt call bck cuz the number fake de. roaming call the number all fake de. den sian lor. tot tt guy would call later but didnt. (whoever it is, lemme know) after tt went over to cousin's place. we stayed there for the night. tot i could have fun playing games, but guess wad. my bros kept playing n stopped onli when we were going off to dinner or sth. was so pissed. haven even start playing, gotta off le. nvm lorz. come bck still can play ma. but came bck, they continued playing. den i played for awhile, my father came in le. say he wanna slp liao. great...n he added sth which passed me off alot. i stopped playing right after tt. he said to me 'better stop playing ah' den i answered him 'the others are still playing wad.' den he said 'u are always the worst, so i tell u'. i was like, wtf lorz. suan le. i go slp. argh...den in the room, my bros took the gd places. i had to sleep by the curtain where there's alot of mosquito...nxt day woke up early to play bball. tot i would do sth tt others cant interfere, so went wif my cousin play bball. played until v bad. cuz so long nv play le. haix. quite pissed wif myself, but cant blame anyone. den go bck le lorz. ate lunch, tok to grandparents awhile den went home le.
reach home, finally can go online hor. but sth prevented me.the house electrical system got problem. my mother's room de switches cant on, if not the whole house will trip. so my parents say will slp in my bro's rm. tt's where the com is. so cant use lorz. sianz. tt night slept at ard 3am.
tdy woken up by my bro cuz wan go cut hair wif him. so quite early woke up. came bck after cut hair, my big bro is up, den he start finding trouble wif me. dunno wad's his prob. den he went out le. nvm...den went to bathe. after tt went to help my mum wif the visa application for education in melbourne. was so pissed. tok to her she dun wan respond. suan le lor. i juz walked off. went to use com le. after awhile went to buy lunch. my second bro ask me go buy cuz he going out soon, den he v hungry. so i go buy for him n the rest lorz. came bck, kena bombarded cuz i pack my things nv pack properly. my bro kept shouting at me. i bth le den shout bck lorz. almost had a fight wif him. i was so darn pissed. anyw, we almost fought cuz he kicked a chair to hit my toe. sounds rrly childish right? it's actually cuz the chair hit the bone of my toe. until now still swollen. den aft tt juz hold bck my anger lorz. suan le. everything was my fault anyw. it's always my fault. everytime i do sth wrong, everyone will start shouting at me. but when they do sth wrong, i cant shout at them cuz im YOUNGER than them. i hate this thing man. to the CORE. wadeva...den i did sth tt i've not done for a very long time. shant say it. i dun do it often also. can say it's once in a blue moon, a rrly blue moon. for the rest of the day, my mum's juz toking to me abt respecting elders n all tt. i dun wanna hear anymore already, so i juz shut off. heck care. haix...didnt expect i would be like tt.
anyw, sorry for the long entry. i juz wanna vent all my anger out. i feel alot better already. i juz understand frm all tt happened, tt being nice to ppl doesnt always mean they'll be nice to u bck. so frm now on, except to afew ppl, i'll juz be quiet, heck care n kinda cold. wad for go all out to help someone. the reward is the opposite. my family has already proven this to me. shouldnt my family be the most trusted ppl in my life?
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`[J]ar[R]od a.k.a. [J]ia[L]at `18yo, 7th April `jarrodlee89@hotmail
